What 2009 Coulda Been…

The New Year has not started out very well for me on a health front. For the past week I’ve been throwing up or just feeling really, really nauseated, and haven’t been able to pin it to anything in particular.

I’m going to interrupt myself for a moment. If there is a word starting with ‘p’ and ending with ‘regnancy’ creeping around your little head please stop. I did the math. Not possible. Now if you’d like to tell me horrible stories about how half of South Nashville ended up in the hospital because of a dreadful case of food poisoning via potato soup, I’m all ears.

Despite feeling crappy, the premarital counseling shtick is starting to ‘take off’ in the form of 5 or 6 more couples interested in various forms of premarital counseling. Normally, I wouldn’t share something like this except that,

a) I’m so very excited (and, to be honest, completely surprised),
b) it’s kinda the only exciting thing that has happened to me in the past week other than puke-fest 2009,
and c) I have a question for you guys…

Are you content being a ‘coulda been’? Is it enough for you to know you had the potential to do something, or do you need to actually accomplish something to feel good about it?

Because I realized something about myself after the third email asking about counseling. I was ready to stop. On some level simply having people interested in me to be their counselor was satisfying enough. Actually developing a practice was no longer that big of a deal because I now had evidence that the possibility of a practice was real.

The same was true when I ran that mile without stopping. Coulda Been Athlete.

And every time I turned in a paper I had written an hour before class. Coulda Been Awesome Student.

The 2 years I spent failing engineering courses at Tech? Coulda Been Engineer (with a job right out of college)

This week I came to the realization that I am never going to make it to Has Been status because I’m a serial Coulda Been! And I’m wondering, is this common? Are you guys content with knowing you’ve got it in you? Or are you good at pushing through to the end?

Thankfully, I think my Coulda Been streak is going to end with the help of Mark. He looked at me like I had lost my mind when I suggested I tell all the potential clients I was going out of business…ya know, with the recession and all. I hope he is prepared to give me that look every time I start The Crazy Talk.

So, what could you have been?

8 thoughts on “What 2009 Coulda Been…

  1. Secret Agent "CT" says:

    Marie! Just do it! You are going to love it. Maybe you are just nervous. (I’ll be a stand-in Mark.) Get your premarital couseling on! πŸ™‚

    Love ya girlie!

    PS. I’ve been a little sick feeling lately too. People have been mention that bad p word to me too. Fat chance folks, fat chance. Not me! Not this time. I’m blaming mine on sinuses or the beginnings of a stomach bug. I vote for the sinuses! Get better soon Marie!!

  2. mckinneyoatescereal says:

    Aw, thanks, CT πŸ™‚

    I am feeling tons better, but it was honestly the worst (and longest) case of stomach flu I’ve ever had… horrible. I hope you’re not getting it, but I’m kinda glad to hear *something* is going around… and that that something is NOT a baby!

  3. Secret Agent "CT" says:

    I agree!! I’m glad to hear that you are feeling better.

  4. Michelle says:

    I get that content with “coulda been” feeling too.

    No hump day post?

    Miss ya!

  5. Susan says:

    I, too, will comment on this one dear twin. My issue is that once I know I can do it, I decide I no longer want to spend the time and effort it takes to make it successful. Just knowing I can do it IS ok with me. Then I move on to the next thing I think I want to do. And it doesn’t interrupt my comfy life. This way, I never really have to get out of my comfort zone.

    This year, I am resolving to break rules. Even some of my own.

  6. Susan says:

    And may I also remind you of my running strategy…when I feel like I want to stop, I go a little bit further.

  7. mckinneyoatescereal says:

    Michelle, there will be a hump day post today… I’m a little behind schedule πŸ˜€ And I miss you, too!

    Susan, I couldn’t have explained it better myself! And I always think of your running strategy… you should include it in the devotional book I’m sure you’ll write soon πŸ˜€

  8. Susan says:

    Probably won’t. Just knowing I can is enough for me. lol

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