The New Year has not started out very well for me on a health front. For the past week I’ve been throwing up or just feeling really, really nauseated, and haven’t been able to pin it to anything in particular.
I’m going to interrupt myself for a moment. If there is a word starting with ‘p’ and ending with ‘regnancy’ creeping around your little head please stop. I did the math. Not possible. Now if you’d like to tell me horrible stories about how half of South Nashville ended up in the hospital because of a dreadful case of food poisoning via potato soup, I’m all ears.
Despite feeling crappy, the premarital counseling shtick is starting to ‘take off’ in the form of 5 or 6 more couples interested in various forms of premarital counseling. Normally, I wouldn’t share something like this except that,
a) I’m so very excited (and, to be honest, completely surprised),
b) it’s kinda the only exciting thing that has happened to me in the past week other than puke-fest 2009,
and c) I have a question for you guys…
Are you content being a ‘coulda been’? Is it enough for you to know you had the potential to do something, or do you need to actually accomplish something to feel good about it?
Because I realized something about myself after the third email asking about counseling. I was ready to stop. On some level simply having people interested in me to be their counselor was satisfying enough. Actually developing a practice was no longer that big of a deal because I now had evidence that the possibility of a practice was real.
The same was true when I ran that mile without stopping. Coulda Been Athlete.
And every time I turned in a paper I had written an hour before class. Coulda Been Awesome Student.
The 2 years I spent failing engineering courses at Tech? Coulda Been Engineer (with a job right out of college)
This week I came to the realization that I am never going to make it to Has Been status because I’m a serial Coulda Been! And I’m wondering, is this common? Are you guys content with knowing you’ve got it in you? Or are you good at pushing through to the end?
Thankfully, I think my Coulda Been streak is going to end with the help of Mark. He looked at me like I had lost my mind when I suggested I tell all the potential clients I was going out of business…ya know, with the recession and all. I hope he is prepared to give me that look every time I start The Crazy Talk.
So, what could you have been?