A few years ago my mom gave me a birthday card, and in it she wrote:
“I am thankful God trusted me to take care of you…”
On the front end it seems like a simple thought, but what if that was true? What if the people that were put in our lives, the families we were born into, the friends we’ve made, the lovers we’ve committed to, were put there because God trusted us to take care of them?
For you to understand what this means in my world you have to understand that I believe God loves us. Like crazy loves us. I believe that we are each an individual and precious masterpiece in his eyes.
And God trusts me with his beloved creations???
I’m not going to lie. My immediate reaction to being trusted by God to take care of people he loves is, “Take it back! Take it back! TAKE IT BACK!”
I’ve never been the biggest fan of responsibility.
Unfortunately, the other thing I believe about God is that he equips us to do his will, and I believe his will is to love others. So as much as I don’t always believe in my ability to love others, I do believe in God’s ability to do so.
This may seem random, but some days this idea that God trusts us to take care of each other is the only way my world makes sense.
Because as harsh as this may sound, there are times when loving Mark is hard. There are times when the only needs I want to care about are my own.
And then I remember that Mark truly is a gift who is in my life because God trusts that I can take care of him.
There are days when I’m watching couples treat each other like crap and I wonder, “Why on earth am I trying to help people love each other better? Everyone is so screwed up! What’s the point in trying?”
And then I remember that the God I know wants something better for them, he wants them to take care of each other. And there are times he’s going to use me to show them that.
The days when my brain can understand this are the days that the world makes sense to me.
Who are you taking care of?